SOMETHING

I just trapped inside the confusing situation that make me wanna laugh, cry , yell, scream dan die .
actually i dont know it is !!! seems like the feeling that so hard to tell and out from my mouth.
so strange and out from reality. im bored of everything around me. and im just lost trancelation...
so pathetic i am . but right know there something that always make me happy if i think about that something that cheer my life up , that make me smile i dont know what if feel like nerveus a smile in the face  , a pushing , an interested , a way to start something new, a belief a trust a love or even a jealoosy and  i hope a feeling like this always there on my mind and never get away, something that i lost but now i found that,
i hurted a couple years ago, there is something make me crazy , something that i could treat me to good life and now i just thinking about something that full my mind for this couple days i know that so hard for me to make something tha fall in my arms and into my heart but i always try thought. i know its so stupid , but i believe couse god always gives the way ...