what happen if stop believe in love ?

What happens when you stop believing in “love”? At first, you feel an excruciating pain and loss like no other. You feel like you have been lied to all your life that this thing called “love” which is supposed to be the one thing that fills you and makes you whole is a “cosmic joke”. You become cold and empty inside and life becomes colorless. With the joy and beauty gone you just get through the moment instead living. Some one can hold your face in their hand and tell you they love you but you do not believe it or you wonder “for how long”? When you crave the touch of another person, you let some one use you because there is no point in looking for some thing more in their eyes other then lust. To you “love” is just an illusion that fades the moment you try to touch it. It is not real and the pursuit of it a waste of time. Life no longer feels like an adventure or a journey it begins to feel like a clock ticking off the seconds until it winds down and you can sleep and dream. There in your world of dreams you can remember what it was like when you still believed in “love” and remember how you where filled with wondrous tingling when your love touched you. However, you always wake. It was not a choice you made willingly but when it fades again and again, you are forced to face the fact that “love” is just a word and means nothing at all. The devastation that realization causes, only happens because you fight the reality of it for a while but soon you except, as you do any loss, and go on with life. This is what happens when you stop believing in “love” as I have.

I no longer feel this way, I am not going to stop believing in Love, I know it is real because I have felt it